I Love This.

It's Time.

I have been so depressed, so unhappy, so not myself from my anxiety this last year. I've truly lost who I am and interest in everything I love. But I think it's time. It's time for me to be me again.

So with that in mind, I did something very, very huge for me today. To others it might be something small, insignificant, but for me, it's the first step.

I wrote. And on top of that, I updated.

I also put on pants, however that is a story for another day.

It is time to get on the upswing and finally start to go back to the sarcastic, silly, happy person that I've always been. I'm ready to be me again.

Stories Are Just That - Stories

I think sometimes readers, and writers alike, forget that stories don't always have to be real. They're stories for a reason. You can have the wildest names, craziest settings, and they can never actually be unrealistic because in the book world, anything can happen.

That's something I need to remember. I nitpick my stories apart even without rereading what I've written. I know that if I do go back and look when I'm self-doubting, it will all go to waste. 

There's millions of things happening at this very moment in time. And again now, and again, and again...Who's to say what happens in your story isn't possible, or isn't already happening? No one. If you want to write a story about horse princesses that live in a castle, go for it - write what makes you happy to be writing.

xoxo Monst3rs

Things I'm Doing Instead of Writing

I'm the worst person for procrastinating. In high school, I left the big project to the night before (sometimes the morning before) and wound up getting it done that way instead of ahead of time. That being said, I do that for things I love, too. Especially writing. Maybe if I keep track of what I'm doing so I don't have to write, I'll switch up my procrastination routine.

1. Video games are my worst enemy. I can go for hours on end without realizing how much time is passing, or tell myself I'll stop after one round of that game - but I won't.

2. iPod Apps. You know the ones that you have to check periodically because certain tasks take real time, so when you put it down you pick it right back up again and wonder, 'hey, my wheat is probably done growing by now.'

3. Milo snuggles will keep me immobile - and unable to type, for as long as he will cuddle and sleep with me.

4. I will actually clean to procrastinate writing. I hate cleaning. I love writing. How is this possible?

5. Browse social media and refresh it every minute as if something groundbreaking is unfolding.

6. Being talked into playing World of Warcraft by my boyfriend. Just one dungeon, he says. It is never just one.

7. Watching Pretty Little Liars on Netflix.

8. Organizing things I used to procrastinate doing.

9. Answering inbox's, messages, comments, emails, etc.

10. Complaining that I never write anymore.

11. Being melodramatic about stupid things.

12. Retaking a million snap chat pictures because I look like I've been doing meth.

13. Reading so I simply don't have to write.

14. Watching YouTube until I'm all caught up on my subscriptions. Then watching other things so I don't have to move.

15. Scrolling through Twitter and reading drama that I had no idea was happening.

16. Googling information on that drama so I am well informed to pick a side.

17. Internet stalking the life out of the people involved in that drama because I'm a horrible person.

18. Getting story ideas from that situation and not writing them.

19. Daydreaming about being a writer.

20. Doing literally nothing.

Writers Helping Writers

If you know me from Wattpad, then you know Wattpad is filled with amateur writers. And I don't mean that in a negative way. I mean it as Wattpad is where a lot of young writers are just starting out or even trying to get better at writing. And as a website of writers and also readers, should we not be helping each other out? Not everyone is fantastic the moment they start writing. That's why we provide positive feedback with helpful ways to improve. Not negative comments that make the writer feel bad about themselves.

First of all, this isn't a rant. I've received many negative comments, even hate comments in the past. And after reading through the author who wrote the above comment and all the other ones she's written on my story, I actually find it hilarious. 

How are we supposed to improve if people are putting us down? Why do people leave such rude comments in the first place? Does it make themselves feel better? Do they want to put us down? I honestly have no idea.

As writers, we should stick together and help each other. We all have different struggles in our writing and different weaknesses. But that doesn't mean we should pick each other apart. Everyone has to start somewhere, and even if that somewhere doesn't feel very good at first, it does get better.