Wednesday, December 31, 2014

My 2015 Goals


1. Study Japanese fluidly

2. Get my high school diploma

3. Write every day

4. Publish/Self-Publish a novel

5. Workout on a regular basis

6. Get a job

7. Be responsible for my own life

8. Keep my room clean (I'm going to regret this)

9. Go camping alone with the boo

10. Learn to be a better cook

11. Stop swearing like a truck driver

12. Get my anxiety and depression under control/stop being so worried about how I feel

13. Get rid of things I don't need (I'm sorry future Lindsay. It has to happen. You have too much stuff)

14. Continue gardening

15. Start cosplaying

16. Finish all the TV shows I'm in the middle of

17. Start a savings account

18. Be proud of myself

19. Gain more confidence and stop being so scared of living

20. Get driver's licence

21. Stop drinking regular milk

22. Have more solo dance parties in my room

23. Spend more time with friends

24. Get back into writing

25. Start drawing again

Tuesday, December 30, 2014

Life Changes in 2014

★New SPARKELING year to u★

2014 was a huge year for me. A lot of changes, a lot of decisions, but overall, it was a good year. Time to reflect and make 2015 just as good!

Wednesday, December 24, 2014

The Bad Day Cure

Bubble bath

Everyone has bad days where they can't seem to get out of their down mood. Being me, I have a lot of them on a regular basis so I've had to develop some cures to alter how I feel. Here's my favorite. 

Tuesday, December 23, 2014

My No-Fail List of Happiness Acomplishments

My psychiatrist said to me that any accomplishment no matter how small can make a difference in the way you feel. He said he has had patients that can't even bring themselves to get up to brush their teeth in the morning. So instead of telling them to do that, he told them to get up, look at their toothbrush, and then go back to bed.
It's not a revolution, but it's a start.

Saturday, December 20, 2014

A Huge Update

1. I am so sorry for not getting to reply to your comments/messages/posts. I really do not like the new Wattpad format as it doesn't show me them, or even close to half of them and I don't end up seeing them until super duper late D:

2. Hiatus means my stories are currently not being written. At. All. That doesn't mean I won't finish them - I hope to at some point. But I'm kind of on a semi-hiatus from Wattpad myself, and not writing whatsoever.

3. I'm about to get really personal right now, but I believe that you guys deserve to know what's going on with me. I used to write every single day, and even upload a chapter, if not two, every single day. Writing is my passion and it will always will be - I'm not giving up on it or taking a hiatus from it intentionally.

As some of you may know, I have a severe anxiety disorder. I can't attend normal school/college, I don't do a lot of social things, I have some very bad days and so on. But recently I was diagnosed also with depression. That resulted in my anxiety medication being changed, and that caused me to feel much, much worse. (along with some personal issues)

Anxiety and depression are a lot scarier to me than a broken arm or a stomach ache.  They aren't psychical - they're inside your head, and therefore, they're YOU. They change your personality, your way of thinking, everything that makes you you until you don't know who you are anymore or how you're supposed to feel.  Changing medication causes withdrawals which amplify that effect  and also cause things like shivers, itchiness, shocks, not eating, etc.  So while I've been dealing with my mental illnesses, I've  also been dealing with the side effects. And as much as I miss writing, and absolutely love it, it has been extremely hard for me to even think about it in the last year.

But here's where it gets better. I'm getting better. I'm not there yet, but I'm on my way. It might take a while, but I'm trying. A few weeks ago, I wrote for the first time in almost a year. To me, that is progress.

Wattpad is the very thing that took my writing to another level and made it my passion. I'm not quitting,  and I not only owe it to you guys to keep going, but also to myself.

Thank you guys so much for being understanding. I love each and every one of your beautiful souls <3

- Monst3rs/Lindsay